:P

Life's a bitch!
You either have same shit but different day;
Or same day with different shit!
Ain't that just cool -_-"

Velvet

After weeks of dreadful,stressful, agonizing assignmentsand mid terms. Me and my classmates decided to release ourselves and have some fun in VELVET!!! Yea....Whole night of dancing and chilling. :)

(From right: Carole, me, Liza and the driver David)
All set and ready to go! ;)(From Right: Sam, Liza, Carole,me and David)

Sam our inside man to hook us up and bring us in....Yea...all night of parte!!!(From right: Me, Liza, Nadya and Carole)
Watch out people!Malaysia's next top model!Charlie's Angels!!After a few drinks, Sam start to act funny...
Liza: Lets drink and make peace babe...Hey pretty gurls....After all the drinking and partying....we are finally exhausted so we went out to chill and guess how we bump into....yup the comercial actor. He acted in the carlsberg and celcom comercial...hehehe...*HAPPY*And David finally showing his true self to us....after listening to all the girl talks we had...it started to have an effect on David...Haihz...

REST!

Mark 6: 30-34

The apostles gathered together with Jesus
and reported all they had done and taught.
He said to them,
“Come away by yourselves to a deserted place and rest a while.”
People were coming and going in great numbers,
and they had no opportunity even to eat.
So they went off in the boat by themselves to a deserted place.
People saw them leaving and many came to know about it.
They hastened there on foot from all the towns
and arrived at the place before them.

When he disembarked and saw the vast crowd,
his heart was moved with pity for them,
for they were like sheep without a shepherd;
and he began to teach them many things.

Living in a hectic place like KL, where life is stressful, places are always full of busy people that you can be like them. Going about life everyday that you forget to just take a step back and really think.

Living like a mad person, I have to go to college, work two part time jobs to pay my bills, take care of my family and even serve in church. Before sun rise I’m out of the house till the sun has set and the day is about to be over only I go back home. Everyday is a routine to me, where I just have no time for myself anymore!!! Slowly life would be a drag, you’ll have yourself having a hard time waking up, life seems such a mess, you don’t have ENOUGH time anymore, your body start to ace and slow down etc etc etc. That’s when you realize that you NEED a break!

Its important for us to leave the house, your normal life and go into solitude to think and rest. To think about “what are the things that really matter in your life?” Come away to be by yourself and rest for a while.

I realize I need that solitude, the need to think and listen. Most importantly, I NEED REST!

Art

Everything starts with a blank piece of paper.
An empty, white sheet of paper which allow sufficient room for your creativity to run wild.
Word by word, stroke by stroke, you fill the blank sheet of paper with personality, characteristics and beauty which slowly gives it life.
You'll never stop until you are satisfy, until you know that this work is a perfect master piece.
In the end when you finished it, you'll look at it full of proudness and say "Ah at last, what perfect work of art!"

One night out in Bangsar

This is our girls and David's night out...We decided that after numerous of assignments and mid-terms, we really REALLY need to go out and just hang...
So thats what we did...We went to Bangsar,to be specific this small corner bristro call = Bangsar Telawi Bristro. According to my colleague suraya, it serves good drinks...
So we ordered and chat whole night long. It was fun and relaxing , most importantly we really deserve this night out together :)
But poor David the only guy have to bear though all our excessive, revealing girl talk...
Aneway when we ordered our drinks (I ordered strawberry lemon ice...or something like that which you can see it in the pic above. yes its the pink drink, really nice you should try) Felicia (girl in pic below) ordered sex on the beach, its a type of drink with alahol in it....
So we ordered and waited a few miutes for the waiter to bring the drinks to us. So this waiter holding all our drinks on one hand, picks up this glass of liquor and ask "So, who's having sex?"
All of us just too stunned to talk, then Felicia very slumber just say "yes i'm having sex...on the beach tonight!"

Beauty myth

Today in our crisis lecture, my lecturer instead of telling us how to manage crisis, he told us about a crisis which is happening in Malaysia right now. Which is the beauty myth.
Beauty Myth is a book written by Naiomi Woolf.
What does Beauty means to you? According to ww.dictionary.com , Beauy is define as "the quality that gives pleasure to the mind or senses and is associated with such properties as harmony of form or color, excellence of artistry, truthfulness, and originality."
I guess its safe to say that its an ecstasy feeling which one has when one view another person or object etc.
But how do you measure beauty?How can you say that one is beautiful to this extent and the other is not?
Funny, our world right now i teaching us to be beautiful and too look at the contextual of who people are. you can see in Tv, Movies and even advertisement, that you have to be pretty with this figure to be called a beauty. song lyrics sings about people wanting to have Angelina 's lips, Jennifer Lopezs figure and Jessica Alba's sexsiness.
Is that what you want your next generation to see themselves? the context and not the contentual?
People nowadays are so conformed into being beautiful that they would go to the extent of starving themselves to be skinny, to have that beautiful figure, women would rather spent millions and thousand of money to do plastic surgery. in the end does this starvation, plastic surgery and torture to your body makes you beautiful? Is it worth it?
I believe that everyone is beautiful! Why?:Because you are specially made, by God's own hands, each of you.Yes! i mean YOU are made in God's image. I believe that everytime God finish making one person, He would look at you with those proud eyes and say that you are my precious.
Therefore all of us ARE beautiful and we should focus on the inside of a person than the outside. We should be contentual than contextual!

Life

Someone once ask me, What are the things that really matter in life? family?friends?money?career? etc etc etc... To tell you the truth,i have never thought of that before.
What things really matter to me in life? Have you ever tought bout it?

Darkangel

Its night again, where darkness surrounds you and evil comes out to harm. She put on her fighting black leathery suit and cloak on, a black cold metal covering her face but not long enough to cover her eyes, her enchanting everychanging eyes. Her long black sword straped behind her. yet another night to fight, fight for the peace of the world, ofr it to be safe from THEM.
She can smell THEM moving in the darkness, putting thier long shrap nails onto human flesh,consuming them in the darkness. Her heart race and her spirit moves in her making her wanting to draw her sword and push it into thier pathetic body.
She works alone, never believed in working with other. Too much hasle, got to take care of the other, too much feelings involved too, people may die and things will get messy.
Its time...She must move fast, into the darknes she soar drawing her sword to fight...

Promise

You promise to stand by me forever,
You promised to protect me always,
You promise to be the pillar to hold me when i'm falling,
You promise to comfort me when i'm sad,
You promise to laugh with me when i'm happy,
You promise to never leave me,
you promise, and you promised...
But now,
I got to learn to stand on my own two feet,
I got to learn to fight,
I got to learn to crawl back up on my own,
I got to learn to not shed a tear,
I got to learn to laugh on my own,
I got to learn to continue living by myself,
All because you broke your promises and left...

10.07.06's first reading

Hosea 2:16, 17c-18, 21-22

Thus says the LORD:
I will allure her;
I will lead her into the desert
and speak to her heart.
She shall respond there as in the days of her youth,
when she came up from the land of Egypt.

On that day, says the LORD,
She shall call me “My husband,”
and never again “My baal.”

I will espouse you to me forever:
I will espouse you in right and in justice,
in love and in mercy;
I will espouse you in fidelity,
and you shall know the LORD.

Too late?

I finally pluged the courage to go for confession today!I have been wanting to go for confession for months, but when i reach church, looking at the confession booth, my legs just suddenly have a mind of its own and walk the other way. I don't know is it because i am afraid, afraid to let God or anybody see the dark side of me. Or is the devil in me keeping me calling me away?
Anewey, after draging my feet and forcing myself, i finally made up my mind and went for confession. BUT...unlucky me, when i line up for confession, suddenly they tells me that times up, its time for mass so no more confession! -_-
Haihz...m too late again...
I wonder would it be too late for God to wash this dirty soul clean?

Willing to change

Jesus, I know that your gospel is meant to transform lives. Come, Lord, and let your word penetrate my heart, so that I can see your love and tender care. Lord, help me turn from sin and embrace your life. My heart is open, and my spirit is willing.
- Our Daily Bread 6/7/06 -

Amos 5:14-15,21-24 - Today's reading (5 july 2006)

Am 5:14-15, 21-24

Seek good and not evil,
that you may live;
Then truly will the LORD, the God of hosts,
be with you as you claim!
Hate evil and love good,
and let justice prevail at the gate;
Then it may be that the LORD, the God of hosts,
will have pity on the remnant of Joseph.

I hate, I spurn your feasts, says the LORD,
I take no pleasure in your solemnities;
Your cereal offerings I will not accept,
nor consider your stall-fed peace offerings.
Away with your noisy songs!
I will not listen to the melodies of your harps.
But if you would offer me burnt offerings,
then let justice surge like water,
and goodness like an unfailing stream.

I find that after i started to work in the corporate\entertainment\PR company, that sometimes i tend to be conformed to the world. To do things that they might think its ok like to cover up some figures so that we would not need to pay more, to do things or act in a certian way to please people, to say things which you know is not true, to cover up your mistakes so that you dont look bad etc etc etc. I realised that by doing so i lose touch of my real self and God.
This pasage reminds the importants of living an excellence lifestyle as a catholic, we have to seek good and not evil. This would include not to participate in any activities which i know is not good and may harm my relationship with God, or change God's perspective of me from good to bad.
It also reminds me that i have to stand up and seek justice, or not whatever that i do in church would be nothing to God. Heck it might even be a sore in God's eyes.
I pray Lord that you would give me the courage to stand up for You and for justice. Help me and remind me to seek good and to be good. Amen!

A message from God

It has been months that i have this 'feeling' which made my soul so restless and distrubed. Everytime i have it, something bad would happen to me that day. Adrian said that is a gift from God, a descerning spirit.I was praying and asking God what is this about and what can i do about it. Something happened during the senior confirmation camp, i guess God not only wants me to go there to serve but also receive something from Him.
I was praying really hard about it because it constantly bothers me, this feeling i mean. Then on the third day of camp(sunday) morning, i went down to the living room of Fr.OC's house(his really nice to let us stay there during camp).Still feeling groggy and blur due to a late night of preparation for mass for that day. As i sit on the couch, waiting for the blurness to wear off Adrian suddenly ask me something that makes me think. He ask "Which armour of God is for offence?", i was stunned with his question and look at him with a blank stare. Looking at my blank stare he say that maybe i'm not awake yet and continued with his work.
That question did made me think...the whole morning. Then Adrian ask me to pray over people over the praying session. so i feel that i'll need to pray, so i perpare myself to find a quiet place to pray. But God's spirit prompt me to pivk up the Bible and read. I reluctantly do so. i opened up my dailly bread, turned to the page(28th may 2006, sunday) and opened the Bible to the verse that is stated there. Guess what it was Ephesians 6:10-18...it talks about the armour of GOD!!!

Ephesians 6:10-18
10

¹ Finally, draw your strength from the Lord and from his mighty power.

11

Put on the armor of God so that you may be able to stand firm against the tactics of the devil.

12

For our struggle is not with flesh and blood but with the principalities, with the powers, with the world rulers of this present darkness, with the evil spirits in the heavens.

13

Therefore, put on the armor of God, that you may be able to resist on the evil day and, having done everything, to hold your ground.

14

So stand fast with your loins girded in truth, clothed with righteousness as a breastplate,

15

and your feet shod in readiness for the gospel of peace.

16

In all circumstances, hold faith as a shield, to quench all (the) flaming arrows of the evil one.

17

And take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18

With all prayer and supplication, pray at every opportunity in the Spirit. To that end, be watchful with all perseverance and supplication for all the holy ones

I guess i got the answer about the feeling that i have. I think God wants me to use His armour, especially when i have that 'feeling'. To use the armour to fight the evil spirit because our battle isnt agaisn't human forces but agaisn't the rulers and authorities and thier dark powers which govern the world. I am to be a worrior of Christ, to stand on His side in the front line to fight.
Dear Lord, teach me to use your armour, thats my prayer...

A day out with ex-roomie

This girl below is my ex-rommate, Lien Tze :) i live with her in the same hostel room for one and a half year. Before she came in, i was praying to God that He would be gracious enough to give me a good roomate which i can talk to and bond with. Always a faithful friend, God sent me a roomate which i can bond with.The first time i saw her, was when i just came back from college extra activites. She was talking to her friend in fleunt malay and i thought that she was a malay. Not till when i start to talk to her that i know that she a typical chinese from Sabah (No offense shes a cute and adorable girl). From then onwards we had been really good friends; we can talk on almost alot of things and we share lots of nice emories toogether too. So this day(i forgot the date already), since both of us are holidaying; we decided to eat sushi and watch movie and just hang.

So we meet in Sunway Pyramid and bought our movie tickets first before we proceed to the movies. After that we went to Genki Sushi for lunch. Lien Tze say that she miss eating sushi and would like to eat sushi...so there we are, Genki Sushi. I like to eat sushi too, used to work in Sushi King so thats why i know how to make sushi :) I like the genki sushi in Sunway pyramid. Its has a very warm and japanese ambience in it. The sushi there is cheaper than Sushi King and nicer(excluding thier rolls, i think Sushi king's rolls are unbeatable). I have a thory that they only hire cute guys there too....hehehehe...so you can 'cuci mata' while you enjoy thier food there :D








There are alot of variety for us to choose from....we choose and ate and order alot of sushi.






sushi before it was eaten (Left) Sushi after it was eaten (right) Or Like that (Below)





We ate alot of sushi, Lien Tze even get to eat her favourite octopus and my favourite Salmon sushi.This is Lien Tze savouring the salmon sushi....nyum nyum....looks delicious :)~
Let me teach you how to make a soothing and warm japanese tea in Genki Sushi....First you put one teaspoon of japanese powder into the cup. Then you put he cup under the tap, infront of the black handle.You pour the water to the level that you desire and vala!!! you got yourself a hot cup of Japanese tea :) Thats the way to do it if you dine in Genki Sushi ;)After our lovely meal in Genki, we went for a movie call failure to launch and hang round that place till evening....We had such a fun time hanging around :) Thank you Lord for my good friend/ex-roomie Lien Tze.

Philipines

The missionaries from family mission companies and Philipines came last sunday...The missionaries include Bridget, John D and Janalyn(Ling Ling). I didnt get a chance to meet them not till today.
Adrian called me and invited me to join them for dinner because i told them that i wanted to meet them.I went with a nervours heart thinking how should i react and will i or they recognise me and them.
When i went into the room, they just receive me with hugs, longs hugs and all the I MISS YOU ALOT and how are you? and you look great!
Seriously I felt so good to finally meet them. They bring back old beautiful memories. We had such a magical time together before, serving God and singing praises to God together. It was beautiful.
Now seeing them together makes me miss the two weeks sssssssssooooooo much. I really wish that we can turn back time and go back there again.
Meeting them i ask about everyone i know from Philipines. I heard some good news and bad news too.
I make a promise to myself that before i every leave for UK, i'll go back and see them again. I must go back there...cause there is where my heart is.

Deep Sh*t

I hurt someone yesterday, it was an awful experiance...I was on my way home,really exhausted, burdened, stressed, spiritually dry....I had a feeling a few days ago that something is going to happen. And silly old me didnt pray about it.
Anyway, i was on my way back...i hurt someone...he wasnt really badly hurt just his toe got scratch and he made a huge fuss about it.I was worried about him and apologised and ask how is he...he screamed at me etc etc etc...
Anyway i brought him to the clinic,registered him and wait for his turn. To tell you the truth even though i put on a cool straight face with my head up high like i dont give a damn about things. Inside i was shivering with fear and worry. Million of things run though my head and i was also hoping no one can see my fear.
Anyway the person went in see the doctor, doc say its nothing much...just a small scratch. Cleaned his wound and bandage it and his ok to go...So while waiting for his med...i took out my phone wanting to call someone to comfort me or help me or just to be there for me...but all i did was just stared at the phone. Then something hit me!I dont know who to call...i dont really have anyone to call!!!I mean...i was always there for people whenever they need me, i have friends, good friends actually, loving family....but at that moment...I felt so alone, I know that God is with me in spirit, but i still felt so alone...It was terrible, terrible feeling.
I went back home...cannot sleep..i had terrible nightmares again.But this time its about this incident...
I really pray now that i will never, ever hurt anyone again...NEVER!guilt sucks!

Him

Last night He came and visit me again....this is the third time he visited me. He is always nice and sweet to me, he understands me and loved me so deeply that after i wake up, his love still lingeres around me. In my dream, we talked, we laughed, we bonded. Even though we just talked for a night, but it feels like we have known each other for a lifetime. when i woke up, i felt so dreamy and in a daze...I dont want to wake up from this beautiful dream.
Unfortunately, in reality He is not like how he is in my dream. He is different, like a complete stranger to me, very cold. He is very talented, very musch loved from both gender. It sometimes hurt so much to know that he is not the one that i dream of eventhough they look so alike.
I guess you just cannot mix dreams and reality. haih,,,sad.

Friends

We have friends, we should look only for the best in them andgive them the best that is in us.......Then friendship would be the most beautiful thing in the world
(Anne of Avonlea by L.M.Montgomery, 1909)

Welcome to my world...

Angel was sitting on her favourite cloud up on heaven just like everyday after a long day of work which is helping and saving human beings. she likes to sit at this little white cloud at the north of heaven because it has the best view of earth. She find them interesting and amusing, it fasinated her to see them do things which sometimes makes her wonder 'why?'.Oh how she wish with all her heart that is down there with the humans enjoying life, experiencing life, feeling life... She'll roll over, closing her eyes and pray to God, can i just once go down and live with them?To help them not from up here but down there, to be close to them...God heard her and tell her "i'll send you down disguise as a little princess, but with one condition! you must help those people there and tell them about me!You are not allow to tell them about your true identity.If you fail to fulfill either one, i'll bring you back up here again!" Angel heard it with joy and start singing, dancing and praising God :D That is how Angel turned Princess...