Dream of Home

Tonight I am coming

to visit you in your dream
and none will see and question me
be sure to leave your door unlocked
- annonymous (jctc)

Spring Has Come Around

The winter gone,
The Spring seems to have just come around;
Hark! with the sweet songs of the uguisu
mountains and fields resound
- annonynous (Miyamori Asataro)

FLOWERS

They say the main girl reminds them of me :) Didnt know i was that adorable :P Hehehe.....

Election

Even though i'm a few thousand miles away from home - Malaysia but thanks to the internet, I'm able to find out whats going on back at home - THE ELECTIONS!!!

After weeks of advertisement on 'why you should choose this party and not the others'...Finally comes the day for Malaysian to voice out thier TRUE opinion by voting. I'm proud to say Malaysia do have a voice of its own with the result of the voting as 5 states fell to the opposition.

Furthermore its not just any normal state as it includes our beautiful island Pulau Pinang, Our capital city - Kuala Lumpur, My lovely home - Selangor! :D

Seriously this is the most exciting election ever!!!BN had never lost so badly ever! Change is going to happen in Malaysia and it will be a HUGE change!!!

Especially with our ex deputy prime minister Anwar Ibrahim back on the political limelight :) reading the newspaper suddenly seem so fun!!! :P

Cheeky Sheep and Naughty Piggy

Cheeky Sheep and Naughty Piggy finally together ;)

the greatest commandment and the greatest things in life

When i was talking to Piggy the other day that i realized that i was afraid of a lot of things. Afraid of failing, afraid of disappointing people, afraid of hurting the people that loves me, afraid of being alone, afraid of changes and lots more...

Part of the fear was the condemnation that i have for myself that i'm never good, or was never good enough. Even in John and Stasi's book called captivating also says of women nowadays are always made to think that they are never good enough...hence women are never really satisfy with themselves...thinking that they are fat even though they are really skinny, think that they are not pretty enough, think that they are not good enough as a women etc.

But thats not what God thinks of us...In the Bible, Genesis when God made the universe and man. He said that it was good, but He felt that something was missing because the man was alone..hence He made women - Eve! The Master's finishing touch. The women who was not only made out of Adam's ribs, or was made in the image of GOD but also made to reflect GOD's heart!

I realised that there is nothing for me to be afraid of! There is nothing should make me feel that i'm not good enough... Especially when i have the LOVE OF GOD in me because in 1 John 4:18 - There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Hence to say that I believe GOD, which also means that I acknowledge HIS perfect love which will sustain me thru thick and thin. Furthermore with the Love of GOD i lack nothing...Looking back my life as a Christian and i can testify that it is true! When you truly love and seek GOD, He just keeps on blessing you with everything. First He bless me by making me understand that i have the BEST FAMILY IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD AND I WILL NOT TRADE FOR ANYTHING FOR THEM. :D I learned what it means to be in a family :) Secondly He bless me with education that i'm able to study masters n provide me the means for it. Thirdly He gave me the bestest friend of all - JANICE which is also my prayer partner :) Lastly He is always there for me everyday when i wake up! He will gently shine down on me in the morning, He will bless me with rain to wash away my tears, He will be the wind gently follow me around everyday. :D

The best part of all...He have already planned out my future for me! :D So that i don't have to worry about the future. As in Jeremiah 29:11-13 - For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to i prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. So what do i have to be afraid of?all i have to do is to seek God with all my heart ;)

And yes I WILL SEEK Him with all my heart :) and also to learn to love HIM back (Matthew 22:37 - 39 - Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.)

Starting from today, i'll challenge myself to SEEK GOD with all my heart and to LEARN to receive His LOVE, GRACE, BLESSING and ANNOINTING. I will also pray to learn to love HIS people... :) and also to learn to love that person that His given me :)

2 Timothy 1:7 - For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

AMEN!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am utterly speechless!!!annoyed and dissapointed!

I know its a phase which i have to go through to learn and be better person, but i'm just utterly dissapointed in most men and find most of them are just JERKS!

when i tell you to becareful on what you say, please do it!do not say things you dont mean and bring my hopes up...because when you cannot fulfill what you say you will hurt the person that you care alot and maybe to the extend of losing them. If you cannot fulfill things, or have the feeling that you might not be able to fulfill promises that you make...please do not make it!Because people will feel betrayed and dissapointed in you.

I thought that it was just the two of you till P***Y wrote me an email this morning that he has issues and will not be there much for me???What am i now?someone you want to hang out with when you are in a good mood and dump a side when you are having issues?

I guess Janice say is true...you'll learn to know who is true and who is not...I know not all men are jerks look at my bro in law...his so cool and he treats my sis with love and respect...but for now, i'm seriously having a hard time trusting guys again...n P***Y say that i'm bad in relationship, maybe its true...but it was you guys that made me like this...Cause and effect babe...

i got sunshine on a cloudy day ;)

Looking back at my previous post...i realized that when bad gloomy days come and pass...
there will be loads of sunshine :) and the sun is slowly rising in my world :)
Spring is coming..... :D

Ranting!!!

Sometimes people or things just love to remind you how incompetent or annoyingly stupid they can be!!!!

For example today in internet design class, i was trying to create a blog for my assignment and blog spot just shows me how annoyingly dumb they can be!!! They 'CLAIMS' that their HTML are user friendly! FUCK that man!!! YOU ARE SO NOT FUCKING USER FRIENDLY!!!!got me a whole hour playing around with the fucking HTML n IT WORK NUTS!!!it won't let me change into the design that i wanted, it do not let me change zero, it's so not user friendly!!!

Seeing that i am hitting dead end, decided to try out word press...Guess WHAT??? They just another bunch of money suckers!!! I thought i finally found the right web for it but no!!! YOU HAVE TO PAY THE FUCKING THING TO CREATE YOUR OWN DESIGNED BLOG!!!!seriously~!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

The blog thing just ruined my morning!!!dahlah headache on how to design a good and interesting blog, seeing that I'm not a design student!!! Mr.PIG just have to ask the stupidest question at the wrong time!hence upgrading my headache to a migraine!!!

I don't understand why is it that some people have to question everything that you do?cant two people of the opposite sex just hang out and be good friends?why do you have to assume???n think otherwise!?!?!?! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SPOIL EVERYTHING!?!?!?!?!??WHY DO YOU ALL ALWAYS HAVE TO FORCE ME TO CHOOSE?!!?!?!?!? WHATS wrong with just hanging out????

Now because of your question, i will lose my neutral free comfort zone!!!MY perfect neutral free comfort zone whereby i don't have to put up with this cold war n suspicion n gossip!!!! FUCK YOU MAN!!!!

N MR.PL!!!STOP SAYING THIS THAT YOU DON'T MEAN!!!!

What makes it worst is the STUPID INTERNET keeps disconnecting!!! STUPID O2 with their supposedly really good service n high 8GB speed cant even keep a good smooth connection for fucking 15 MIN!!!! KEEP disconnecting for no apparent reason!!!!!N ITS NOT EVEN THE WEEKEND!!!ITS ONLY THE FUCKING MONDAY WHEREBY NOT MUCH PEOPLE USE THE NET!!!!!! Now i cant even do my assignment in peace without THE FUCKING LINE KEEP DISCONNECTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I warn you guys do not cross me!!!!DONT ever piss me off today or this whole week ever!!!!!N I'M NOT EVEN PMS-ING YET!!!!!!

update and more updates

Its been a long time since i touched blogspot...one of the reason is allot of things have been happening that i was so busy till i cant seem to find the time to update anything.
Picking up from my last entry, i finished my degree in Liverpool. Bid farewell to all my course mates and classmates of 5 years and left the capital of culture back home to the warm sunny fast paced home - Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. In my short stay in Malaysia, i manage to get my result, go down on my knees to get a loan, apply for visa, bid all my friends and family farewell, eat as many Malaysia crusine as possible, pack my stuff..all in one month..

Later flew to UK, Liverpool again to start a new life and also course - masters in internet and communication studies...

Of course it doesn't stop just yet, there is also my sister's wedding...YES she finally found that special someone and tied the knot...Shes now a very hang fuk (chinese) wife - Mrs.Chan!!!
Then there is Christmas...and new year!

I know its not much of an update but more of a summary of it :P too much had happened for me to go in specific details here :P but i promise that i will keep you posted on my life here in liverpool...do keep in touch with me cause i will not forget you all in Malaysia :)

P.S. i've also change my hairstyle...got really bored with my straight hair...will post up some pic soon :D

Ja-Nice

I used to not believe in long lasting friendship, or friends forever, or really trust your friend. Cause i know that they just come and go...Not until God introduce me to a special girl...Yup me beloved Janice...nop we are definately not lesbian...but really good friends and also PRAYER PARTNER. :)
I guess you can say i am really lucky to have someone who understands me, relate to me, so similar to me that you might think that we are twins (not the looks), share the same experience as me, knows how to talk to me and drill stuff into me....some one that you will say friends forever, till death do us part, and i trust you and really MEAN it and know that it will definately happen :)
Even though we are miles apart...you are always in my mind and prayers... :D Man i do miss talking to you everyday, miss listening to your girlish-gigglelish-snorting-loud-laugh, miss your dramatic expression, your oh-my-gosh-oh-my-gosh haha....and your stressed out, this is too much work, eye brow wrinkled moment...hehe I'm always thanking God for bringing YOU into my world :)

SELAMAT MERDEKA MALAYSIA

Being away in the land of the 'Whites', i'll not be able to join the crowd to see fireworks, count down till the dot or even scream my lungs out saying "Merdeka" three times...Se seeing that internet has this boundless-ness of geographical area to it, i decided to show my patriotism by posting this....Selamat 50-an Merdeka MALAYSIA!!!!

HAPPY 50TH ANNIVERSARY MALAYSIA!!!

You've walked a long way and are still staying strong....Have fun Fellow Malaysians!

Chester - 26th July 2007

OMGOSH!!!! I know i know...i didnt update me blog for like AGES!!!!!!!!! Been busy with assignments...anyways we left like one more week here..than will have to go back home to Malaysia...haha...time flies when you are having fun ;) anyways...update on the long long awaited trip which our lecturers in LJMU which had been really nice to organise for us....
We went there jalan-jalan and take pic....its a small little town (you can walk from one end to the other in less than half an hour) with thie huge wall surrounding it...pretty cool...

On the bus...going towards Chester...we went to the goversnor museum, walk around town, walk pass a few stores...nop didnt go in... went to the garden....and to their Queens Park Bridge...
Cool bridge
Took pic...
Nice river....DUCKY!!!!!Walk till hungry so go eat...Tell you their Fish and chips and the sausage DAMN NICE!!!!! It was so delicious....hahahahWent to the Romans Garden...
The stone....More stones....
Another more stones.... *yaw*
The meeting place....
their little stadium
The wall which surrounds the city....walking around the wall...passing the river again...The beauty of rivers....View of city from the wall...
Yup thier county hall...dunno y i took that :Pthe front....i think its because of the flower :P hehe...anyways...we walked around the city again...than went back home....nice trip...nice place....thats all...
OK need to go back to assignent d.....
chiaoz for now...will try to update as often as possible...(yes sis will update for you so you know m alive ;) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA just jk la...dont so serious hahahahaha)

Sun Shiny Day!!!

It was a bright sunny morning today!!!This is the first time i've seen the sun shinning so brightly during my last one month of stay here...IT IS JUST GORGEOUS!!!Never thought that i would love the sun so much(seeing how fierie hot Malaysia can be), been raining and cloudy here as if the sun is playing hide and seek with us. I definately cannot lose this golden opportunity of basking myself under the sun, furthermore it would be such a shame to stay in my room all day!

So i decided to pack my bag, throw in a book or two, Siew Leong's camera, junk food and water and off i Go - To St.John Park...
See the place even look so much beautiful when the sun come out, the flower seem to blosom more and swaying under the sound of the gentle wind.Seriously I would not understand how anyone would choose to stay in thier room...(Fellow house mate to note comment..That includes you Elaine Ng and Jessie Teo :P)
My little spot...P.S. I love you is just so touching, very human with a touch of humor...Cecelia Ahern did a fantastic job in putting a once sad beginning to a beautiful ending...
Me....happy...

A long day in MANCHESTER!!!

1st of July - Trip to Manchester!!! YEA work up at blardy 4 in the morning to prepare breakfast and lunch so that we would not miss a 7.30am bus...Phew*

Sat next to Nancy in the bus...took us 45 min to reach MANCHESTER~!!!
1st stop, CHINATOWN...nothing but to get back to our own roots first eh?
Nuclear free park....hehe
Barbara Pearson (1986) Messenger of Peace..This it the world's first Nuclear free place....

Posers.... ;)Next stop...a train to MANCHESTER UNITED STADIUM....
Pretty little me :P
The train ride...
Four pretty girls....
Lets walk to the stadium....
I think thats what the stadium would look like....but of course it will be in green no black grass..haha
I think this is the map of the whole stadium...
The walk of fame...
Do you know these names?
Hehe m not a Manchester United fan...but M here,,,hehe
The Stadium....
Next up...to walk around Manchester..,,and guess what...I didnt know that i got a street of my own ;) hahaha.....
Me in my own street ;)
In the city,,,
The gender change...now guys shop instead of girls...HAHA...
Manchester eye....
More of the glorious Manchster eye...
Lastly the Manchester Eye,,,,,
Primark free advertisement...i think they seriously have to start paying us...for that...
Weird construction...

the road to church...
Manchester Cathedral
Unique building....
Us posing....
After much walk...we decided to hav dinner. Unfortunate for us, all stores closes really early on sunday so we have no choice but to go for a expensive chinese buffet which serve oily not so nice food....
Me trying to look like i enjoy my food
Us
The new 'in' thing...Mcdonalds and Kentucky = Mctucky's.... -_-"
The lot of us who went to MANCHESTER on a beautiful sunday...